Now Ajamila started wondering, “Where have the people with the rope gone? Was it all a dream? Or am I awake? Where have my saviours gone?”.

Then he said to himself, “even though I have committed sins in this life time, I would have done some good things in my previous lifetimes to get their Darshan. Unless I have acquired some past good karma, I wouldn’t have uttered Bhagavan’s Namam on my death bed. Because, I have only erred in this janmam. Where am I, the disgraceful and shameful creature and the most glorious Bhagavad Namam ‘Narayana’?”.

Now, Ajamila decides, “I am going to arrest my mind and senses from their worldly involvement”.

How is that possible?

Ajamila realizes that, ignorance causes “I”ness in the body which leads to desire and the related deeds and relations with wife and children. He decides to cut it off by surrendering at the Lotus Feet of the Lord to discard his ‘animal’ like life. He would focus only on ‘Bhagavad Namam’.

He set off to Haridwar which is popularly known as ‘Deva Sthanam’ and started penance there.