GREETINGS

Background : I have passed bachelors of engineering in the year2012 , and then since on job till date 19 sept 2015. I was also working and doing a distance education mba course which is over and i passed . The problem is during my engineering for five subjects i jad cleared through malpractices like bribing the university which was being done by some of my other friends also during that time and since i was in depression as i wouldnt complete engg within four years i went for that and my parents also agreed.usually i am a very good and sincere in studying.My bad time such a thought came and now after three and half years suddenly i feel it so painful that because of attaing ten marks or more each in those five subjects only i cleared and that whole degree is frawd and i cannot tolerate this fact that i could do such things though few other people did this .I got this thought and pain only when i saw recently my cousin who was failed because he was short of 5 marks.Though i have a good name in the company and everyone appreciates me of my hardwork and sincereity.I am very depressed in life that those 5 subjects i bribed and made it pass and so my entire degree is though original only..its like that also is frawd (though original).I told parents that this thought is killing me and I wanto do again engineering for four years but they are like after three and half years its too late. But i cannot live my life with this guilt.they said go for higher studies but i said based on giving this dishonestly way achievement of degree only i will be getting admission for masters .I dont want the wrong thing to give me rise to another masters degree.so i wanto do bachelors of engg only again.Also parents says people will call me mental and laugh at me that im doin the entire 4 year course again for 5 subjects bribing.They ask me whats wrong with me and people will also laugh when you get two same degrees.I am very religious in nature.Yet i got such a bad thought in my mind while engineering.Last two months i was living in pain and guilt.People said you have repented now continue.but even i have repented ..i dont know if i should consider that degree as mine as deserved.I believe God..I dont know why my fate became that though iam a good student , in life that i got such things.Some students paid and got their subject not cleared but why did no one stop me from my action.nor my parents nor me nor did God.For I believe all things are in control of God.I wanto do the same graduation course again twice but I have to fight with my parents for that.They are saying about my reaputation and their family reputation.but i want mental satisfaction of completing my engg happily fr those 5 subjects so i wanto do engg again.Can i go against the wish of all and do since i dont wanto grow and lead a good job and life based on somuch dishonesty ?whatever happened did it have the will of God? Watever degree i got in life i want it to be God given not like i only made myself an engineer.The though of doing another course i dont want because this degree will be used as basis for the next one which i dont want.pls advise