GREETINGS

Dear Swamiji, I’m a degree student. My problem is that i get negative thoughts. My negative thoughts keep changing. Now i’m getting thoughts about fatal diseases. I try to prevent those thoughts but when i try to prevent it it comes back to me again and again. I get such thoughts when i pray or chant mantras then i will get frightened whether it will affect me. Some people asked me to meditate but even when i meditate i get these thoughts. My friend asked me to distract myself but when i do something these thoughts come and it affects my activities. I get questions like why some people are suffering and why some people are happy then i started thinking why i’m bothered. I even get thoughts like whether these thoughts will affect my future birth. Some people ask me to surrender to god. What should i do Swamiji? Please help. When i do some activity if i’m getting such thoughts what can i tell myself so that i feel protected and taken care of by god. Because of these thoughts i find it difficult to visit temples and even to pray to god and chant mantras. Whenever i come to know that some people suffered from a fatal disease i get negative thoughts about that disease and it has gone to such an extent whenever i get the thought of that person i try to shoo them away. Why is it happening to me? I have seen many people who hear such news and it does not affect them. What should i do or how should i react to such a news? And also please tell me what should i do when i get negative thoughts about fatal diseases or any other thing for that matter. How to surrender these thoughts and myself to god? What i can tell myself so that i feel protected and taken care of by god. Please advise. Belated Deepavali Wishes! Ashwin