GREETINGS

HariOm Swamiji, 2 years ago I went for sree rama chandra mission meditation (A method not concentrating but only paying attention of Devine energy centered in heart, ) That time even though I didnt practise regualry,(once in every 2 weeks I went for the indivial mediation sitting with the Preceptor,Some days I could feel a calm and peacefulmind of happines.eventhough i didnt do it daily I could feel that. But due to some reasons I discontinue that. But I was still very eager about spirituality.My mind was very confused until I saw ur teachings. I started japam,meditation as per your guidance. But my great problem is even though i am doing much sincerly and dedicated my mind is not having calmness or feeling the God’s presence.when i do pranayamam i can feel the lightness. but in meditation i am not feeling that.I could even get rid of my ego and most time I am thinking of Bhagavan. I am a person who seldom have dreams at night.Even if my mind is very disturbed i seldom had dreams,But for the last 1 week plus every single night I had dreams, eventhough I had meditated or had prayers before sleep.I am much disappointed swamiji.I wanted to know swami,why this is happening to me? When I do meditaion, do i need to think or concentrate or jus pay attention to the heart to feel the divine presence.Pls give me a detalied advice Swamiji.