GREETINGS

i am a second year b.sc maths student.eventhough ,i am hindu religion,i cant follow its routines.meanwhile,i came to see about tour programme on asianet “BAGHAVATHAM’.it made a tremendous change in me,after then i start to wake up at 5.00am ,(usually i wake up at 7or 7.30am)and recite 53 lines of vishnu sahasranamam stotram that days are really filled with good energy and positive thoughts,but i cant able to maintain these routine more than a month.i want to make my life to be followed by an ideal hinduism,but when mind is disturbed and filled with negative thoughts,i just dont care anything about it.as a krishna devotee iusually prefer to visit guruvayoor temple once in a month.is there any way to balance my mind?as far as geetha and mahabaghavatham is concerned,how be an ideal mind should be?sometime i got quick temper with my family members ONE MAIN DOUBT “IS IT THE GOD WHO PUNISHES AND SAVES ONE’S LIFE”WHAT SHOULD BE OUR APPROACH TOWARDS GOD? kindly reply and guide me to the proper way…….sanoj