GREETINGS

I feel extremely scared of marriage ,I just turned 23 and my mom wants me to get married at the earliest.All through my life, i have done whatever my family asked me to do with respect to my studies and job but i still took the time out for self realisation and inner transformation,and i am not unhappy about my decision to listen to my family but i strongly feel that i should have done something more interesting and developed my personality on the whole apart from just studying.The way i was brought up has made me an innocent and loveable person but i am extremely scared of marrying a person and living with him for the rest of my life.How do i know that he is the one for me,how do i judge him with just a few hours of seeing each other and what if i might get someone better?So many fears cross my mind.Apart from all this,i find it hard to trust guys because of my past.When i was in college i was innocent and gullible and there was this guy who was handsome and very sweet initially in his talking but i soon realised he was a liar ,vain about his physical appearance and a lazy cheater and my intuition told me to get away from hm but i still remained friends with him for a long time just to realise that i was wasting my time and emotions and he is never going to change .We dint have any affair or any physical relationship .But i never sacrificed my studies my career or my character for him.Today i have a decent job but he i still struggling and i tried to change his attitude a bit as a good friend just to be disappointed again.But i never wantto sell myself short again and dont want to waste my emotions and energy trying to like someone or adjust with someone.I think i have control over my mind but can i live with someone and how do i judge him in such a short time.But my mother really wants me to get married and found a guy for me who seemed really nice in our first meeting but so many fears cross my mind,just what do i do.Sometimes i feel i want to be single all my life.Please help me to understand what to do,my mind seems to have lost its clarity.