GREETINGS

Pranamam Swamiji,I do get a lot of good ideas and thoughts while I listen to good prabhashanams but as I go into the harsh outside world ,not in the beginning but slowly it starts to have a grip on my mind,all the selfishness, competition and the resultant chaos and injustice starts to deplete my energy and my mind sometimes gets stuck there sometimes I find it a bit hard to move on. I was just reading other questions and one person says how he feels after losing his dad, I too lost my dad at seven and now after so long I still at times feel that emptiness inside me,that fear and lack of courage still inside my heart and sometimes there is a resultant loneliness even though I am now settled and have a family of my own,I can still feel the impact of the loss more so because of the way societys behaviotur towards us changed after that.I know this problem isn’t the biggest problem and there are many who suffer much more still at times I feel it’s so hard to cope with that loss ,it brings fear, inferiority and it reminds me of the people around who tried to take advantage of that.Though I could feel a lot of God’s blessings due to which life got better, I do want to cope with thwara