GREETINGS

pranams please dont publish in answer page. i keep reading your answers again and again so that i can get the point but somehow the mind waivers and as much as you say not to expect anything love everybody unconditionally i am not able to do so. according to my husband i am very useless and good for nothing my parents tricked him into marrying me. plus my mominlaw keeps telling me only after marrying you he has changed like this, other wise he used to spend lot of time with me, now he doesnt even talk to me. i have a nine year old son . my husband would even hit me in front of him. so even my son doesnt respect me much . he says i wish you were not my mother. husband is more interested in watching movies and sports and he encourages my son also to the extent that it affects his studies. so many times he has told mue to go out of this house but still i stay on i dont know why. i dont know where this will end. at times i feel what is the point in staying here and fighting. my husband doesnt believe in getting bup early or doing japam he infact eats his braekfast and then takes a bath.. at times my mind says why work for these people when you know they are not bothered about you. just go and join some ashram then i think about my son. how do i get peace of mind. am i wasting my time for these people.