GREETINGS

Respected swamiji thank you so much for your valuable time and reply. I meant career sanyasam, in the sense he just need career not family .he is working in IT. I am sorry for the misunderstanding .his family support him , sometime I feel spoil him.. Many times I discussed this with him. I have asked why did you marry me if you are not interested in all these? His answer is I need time ,I am improving .which doesn’t make sense to me .I felt all these should come genuinely rather than somebody force you and improve. Sometimes I think may be it’s my last birth karma which is firing back at me. sometime I get into depression ,I feel sorry for my baby ( its me who took the decision to go for baby as I wanted to be a mother badly, he was not ready for it and at the same time my in laws were spreading the rumor I can’t have the baby .which was a shock to me .I still didn’t completely recover from it) I want to be a strong positive mother  for my baby. My concern is sometimes the way my husband behave I get into depression and angryness and use cursed words against him(I highly regret it later ,cause its just waste of my energy nothing else changes …) How can i control myself cause I have to face this life long…please guide me.