GREETINGS

Swamiji, I have been having a doubt about an incident in my life about 9 years ago, I have been meaning to ask this to get an answer for my burning mind. Swamiji, we lost our forst born, our son who was eight and half months old, just beginning to call me “amma”, he was my little kannan, my KRISHNA incarnate in our lives….his sudden not being there in our lives made us more strong, more resilent to live in a way, I took all the preachings of all good people in the world and as the story of Sri Budhha goes “there is no one who is not touched by death” my soul knows no solace. My KRISHNA compensated me by giving me a daughter the same day kannan left us two years later. she is the world for us now. But the mother’s guilt and the want to know why I lost him does not make me complete. I want to know what can I do as per the Hindu rites for his and mostly mine peace of soul? I consider him being with me in the form of my daughter and we are all leading a happy life with HIS grace but still the conscience of a mother pricks and pains. Please guide me, please tell me why this happened and what is it that is the moral of this incident in my life Swamiji? Om Namo Narayana, Om Namo vasudevaya….