GREETINGS

uditji i like to know whats the purpose of life here.after getting interested in cosmology and quantum physics,i began to doubt about god.i mean that i fell down totoly in confusion.i heard from discovery that ‘out of total population,we can catogorize people into 4 or 5 in accordance with their concepts about god and creation.some believe that god is something out of our world and we are here to serve and expand conciousness and then return.some says its some forces in nature,panchabootha etc.they try to prove this by something called godhelmet which create some feilds and all.some believe in nature, cosmic energies,stars,galaxies etc.i stuck with the next concept ie, this group believe that there is no creation nor cremation.no beginnig no end.its the human conciousness that created this life ie,our mind or self is the power.hence i concluded in my mind that i am like god.then whom should i respect,workship,there is no such need.krishna,budda etc are just such kinds who expanded there conciousness here itself.how workshiping them could brought us power.me being bought up in a spiritual atmophs could not erase krishna but i believe in guru the master now a days so am in confusion the first or last idea.which one could lead me.i mean if there is god 1)why god made such a place.2) what could be his concept.3)is there a realworld othr than this considering this world as maya only.at the same time i believe that bhagavatham is the solution for life.i dont know what it says about creation?i think you know my situation.i usually become downhearted if i dont get answers from my mind.this all confusions are really killing me.i cant meditate now or do any thing with mind.i am living at the center surronded by concepts of my parents,my guruji,my spiritual friend’s concepts and many others, with confsed mind in inner.feels like a mad now.now i feel that now the knowledge and spirituality is a burden for me.pls have an answer for me and my foolish doubts-vishnu