GREETINGS

I feel so lost and lonely. I dont know if i am i wrong or are the situations wrong,i am so confused.Please help.I have been married for 7 months now through arranged marriage and am 3 months pregnant now.In the beginning it was extremely hard for me to accept and trust a stranger as my husband for life.He was not sweet or romantic like how people are in the beginning and he never seemed to care much ,so i had begged and cried and asked my family to break the engagaement but they refused saying he is a really good and nice person and the best guy for me with a very good future and belonging to a good family.Yes,his family is good and they treat me very well but i feel lost and not loved by him.I had a colleague at work with whom i used to share everything and every part of my life maybe becuase he himself was depressed and like me.My husband doesnt seem to need me or my love,he has a very loving family and a lot of people in his neighbourhood and workplace,that is he is extroverted unlike me (i am introverted and so was my colleague)As our friendship grew ,my colleague had told me he wanted to stay with me but i refused because of my family pressure and also societal pressure.I am not that courageous and cannot make very strong decisions like some girls do .I dont know if this is weird/creeepy or normal but my husband and his mother love each other a lot and she seems to be a good and kind lady.But what seems strange is my husband keeps hugging her,touching her,kissing her and pressing her legs and massaging her and telling her how beautiful she is very often.My mother and my brother are very close and have a strong loving relationship but i have never seen him do or say all these things to my mother as i grew up.I find this weird and creepy and disturbing,does a son have to do all this everytime to a mother.Is it normal between a mother and a son.Please help ,i am confused and feel like i have wasted a life.i am sorry if i am asking is wrong,i dont seem to understand anything.Please kindly help me with your guidance and also please help me or give me tips to direct my mind in a divine way so i can elevate my mind to a higher level.