GREETINGS

Dear Swamiji,how do I fully overcome my emotional weaknesses and dependencies. I have seen that just when I feel I have become so much more emotionally stronger I fall back again and I find many justifications for that.I have found that as long as I maintain a safe distance in my talks from some people especially those at work I have no problem,but when I start talking more openly about things and I let them enter my inner circle then they begin to hurt me or grow jealous after comparing my circumstances with theirs and then they like that I get affected by it as they now know that my nature is a bit sensitive and they have this weird sense of sadistic pleasure of hurting me ,sometimes I don’t know why they do that when initially I had only good intensions for them.But when I sense that they like hurting me then obviously my good thoughts for them change to bitter thoughts which drains my mental and emotional energy which I really need for more important things .I try to be compassionate with them but it’s not easy to be compassionate to those who love to hurt you or find you in trouble.How do I deal with such people and how can I put my spirituality and knowledge of the truth to help me get out of this and keep my mind filled with positivity,goodness,strength,confidence and creativity.Why do I feel the mental strength and confidence I had at one point of time no longer exists at some these times.Is it my lack of focus,discipline and faith in myself. Can you please guide me Guruji.