GREETINGS

Swamiji Pranam…. I cannot focus in my day-to-day activities due to intense daydreaming about who I want to be and how I want my circumstances to be. I am literally living in a virtual world created by my mind and I feel very satisfied and happy in that world…but now it started affecting my real life.. distracting me from my studies and even from my normal life… I spent whole day acting out and living like the characters in my fantasy and waste my time.. now that it started reflecting.. in my academics. I want to get rid of it. As long as I can remeber, I always had this problem from very childhood where I used to sit and cook up stories in my mind about cartoon characters. This finally lead to many academic failures and I started to eat more and became obese… I used to hear and read a lot of spiritual books..but no use…I started to chant mantras and meditate but cannot pursue the practice foe long.. I even joined for yoga classes but in vain.. I hate myself for my mistakes..and when I see all my friends in good positions….everyone compares me with them..and make dun of my utter mistakes and failures….. I completely switch to imaginary world where I can be me… I don’t know why was I born and what is the purpose of my life…what am I supposed to do… I have no direction… I don’t understand why is there so much maya.. why is this huge manifestations..and this life…when I am gonna die one day… Swamiji pls help…I’m in fianl yr and dunno what to do with my life…..