GREETINGS

swamiji, iam 35, unmarrried and unemployed man… from my childhood i was a below average student and the least confident student in my class. my fear, anxiety and inferiority complex grew with me. somehow completed my education and got into a job..but the lack of knowledge and insecurities i lost my job…trying for a job since then…i read many books and listened to discourses but no change. every time i prepare for a job my mind reminds my failure, reminds me iam a total failure..this self sabotage talks are so strong that i cant read or listen to anything…my mind keeps on reminding me how people of age 10-15 yrs younger than me are doing so well and iam just a dumb.i started avoiding people because i have nothing in my life to talk about..i feel so ashamed of my current situation..my parents are heartbroken because of my current situation…..i know i can do well if i control my mind…but its not happening…it reminds me iam a failure and others are all successful with job and family………i want to make things right but just dont know how to make my mind to work for me, to help me rather than these self defeating thoughts…please guide me swamiji…