GREETINGS

Guruji, Thank you so much for your reply. I started pranayam and is very helpful. But my mind is still not convinced. I am not able to visualise a good future. All I can think of is a blurred vision of miseries. I feel my mind wants negative things to happen in life and prays for it. I’m not able to overcome the fear. When I pray to god, sometimes I challenge god. This is not by intention but my mind does that . I love god and I have always felt his blessings. But I am not convinced in some way. I started chanting the prayer “guru brahma…” but if I pray and become spiritual, will my negative prayers come true? I tried to convince myself. But if you can clear these misunderstandings, that would be great as I respect and follow you as my guru.