GREETINGS

I loved my space and hated jealousy or any one whom i dint trust who wanted to know too much about me,so i used to lie a lot like i used to say i dint study anything even if i study or i used to lie a bit here and there but then i realized that when people know the truth they kind of start hating you from the inside and being insincere.So i decided to be humble and honest and change my life in this new place,so when i was in this new place,i wanted everyone to like me even the people of lower cadre and i was as humble as i could be,always honest and after a year now,i feel like a fool and like a big victim to all these people who were lying about so many things for their own selfish reasons and went ahead with their own lives whereas i was depending on them and their friendship or care because i was sincere and honest straight from the heart ,i was being called naive and stupid.i feel that i should never again be honest or sincere to anyone or believe in the false warmth or fake goodness of people.If selfish lying people are called smart now ,then why do they want me to be open and i get the feeling that ot is just to invade my space ,get to know more about me and use it against me.I feel so comfortable to lie every time to people i dont trust but it empties all my inner energy to be honest and genuinely nice and friendly and the other person acts mean ,plays mind games and lies to establish their supremacy.I feel very pathetic and victimized because i was so sincere,honest and innocent.I have heard you have to be different with different people but i just am not able to be good with people.Lot of times i feel like i dont fit in and like i am loosing the real me in the midst of all this politics.Just what do i do?