GREETINGS

Is being manipulative even if that is to achieve something positive good.Is it wrong to manipulate people if you have the power to do it like charming good looks or gift of the gab.If someone is being overly manipulative and you know it ,its my natural tendency to hate hem from the bottom of my heart and then slowly i realize my mind keeps focusing on them and their actions slowly start manipulating me also,by causing me pain and them slowly my mind gets diverted and i forget the real me and i thereby i fail to be my best.But i just become a puppet who is controlled by other. I tried doing meditation but icouldnt and i fail all the time.I also have the habit of being alone and magnifying my problems a lot and thinking that i am the only one who is suffering so much in this world.How do i stop all this and get back control of my life.If i talk about my problems to anyone openly that has always been misused and taken advantage of wrongly.So how do i start trusting people again and how i get myself back