GREETINGS

Pranamam Swamiji, It is with great disappointment that I am writing to you as a problem is haunting me . My problem is i am experiencing chronic back pain due to disc bulge, for the past 4 years. It happened because of my stupid action that i tried to lift a guy just for fun. I was such ignorant at that moment , cos he was a heavy guy . When i recall the moment , i cannot believe that i have done such a foolish mistake. Eventhough i had gone through treatmnt , still experiencing badly. All my daily activities are much affected and when i saw healthy people . I feel disappointed. The left side of my whole body is affected . I am a weak minded person who had tried a lot like practising meditation) to change my attitude. But the result is failure. I have given up. As you said in a discourse that” chilar orikkakum nannavilla” , i think is true in my case. I dont believe in karma. How can i expect any thing positive as what happened is a worse case for me. I am helpless.