GREETINGS

As per my family’s wishes i have chosen a well qualified and well employed guy as my partner,we havent tied the knot yet.But i feel so lonely and empty from the inside and i feel a pain that is hurting me and poking me from the inside.I am a very emotional person by nature.I have been a very honest,good and loveable person throughout my life.I am 23 and i have chosen this guy without really knowing him but because i trusted my family and liked his family background..He says he has an extremely challenging and hectic work schedule which leaves him with almost no time for other things.I am afraid he will have no time for me ,he will never really understand who i am and he will never be there for me and to fight my battles for me and with me in future,he already started teasing me that i am foolish and things like that and no one who knows me truly has ever said that..The whole thing scares me to death.I have been seen as attractive by other guys in college and at work and all those guys who came near to truly liking me or getting to know the real me were deep nice and spiritual people who loved to spend time to understand me and to understand the world together and and so i dont understand what he means when he says he has no time.I have never been involved with anyone beyond a boundary and have never tried to have a real relationship with anyone because my parents were against it but i could not fully reject their love and attention and i cant deny that i have liked it and even had soft corner for a guy at work. but the day i said i am going to commit to this guy as per my family’s wish ,they disappeared from my life and i was happy that i was now mentally free for him and i could start a new life but now i feel nothing but lonely and empty from the inside and all those memories are coming back to me. Will his job and good family background make me happy in future and satisfy me emotionally.I am scared i am wasting my life or playing dangerous games with my life .please help me.I cant say no o him because of family pressure ,they like him and says i should adjust for him.I am ready to adjust but i just cant understand how someone can have no time for the people they love .I am so scared about my future.I feel like killing myself but i have a healthy body,a decent job and most important there are some people who truly love me in my family and some of my teachers who are close to me but i am afraid i have taken a terrible wrong decision that will make me cry for the rest of my life.Please help me swamiji.If i am wrong please correct me,i am ready to change or adjust but i cant suffer with the wrong person.