GREETINGS

I am 24 and i have been married for two months now by arranged marriage.And initially i found it really hard to understand him and honestly dint quite like him and so after my engagement i had asked my parents to break it but they refused saying he is the best guy you can get for your best future.Now as i am understanding him better i have to admit that he has many qualities like he is very hard working,very co-operative and caring but he doesnt look good.I know its not good and might be considered wrong but i feel very bad that i dint get to choose a better looking guy especially when i see my friends and colleagues get married to good looking guys.My friend with whom i was very close was also very cute though emotionally unstable ,thats why i had to leave him though he loved me and wanted to stay with me.It disturbs me a lot when i see that my brother got to choose a girl that satisfied his looks criteria and she is very cute but i was forced to marry him for his qualities.I know i sound very selfish and carnal but what do i do now.i am married and dont want to cheat ,i even broke all contacts with that friend of mine but i am feeling very bad .Please help me with wise thoughts.