GREETINGS

dear swamiji, I have asked you some basic questions before also and was very happy to find your guidance. Though I got a very religious atmosphere from childhood with essence of spirituality from my father but after marriage it was quite opposite. Though I got enough support from Lord krishna still have to struggle a lot for my self esteem. Few years back I did few courses from art of living but couldn’t continue properly as I had to go through spine surgery . after sometime I started again doing sahaj smadhi and experienced some mysteic experience at physical level like whirling in stomach and shouting loud etc. I felt may be I am not able to withstand energy. few months back I heard of pranic healing from my friend as she told that they teach how to ground your energies too. as I did few courses I found its teachings were very much from gita and bible. though both teach same. Swamiji why is it that I don’t feel satisfied.Though practises from both give me calmness inside why I feel my vices are not reducing. Why same anger for people who have hurt me comes time and time again though reduced much. why I feel something I am missing. and not able to understand it These days it is not possible for everyone to have direct link with guru like yesterday’s but my heart still long to jave someone who guides me like that. Is it because of this I amm not getting what I should from my practices. One more thing on very serious notes can we see krishna as we see others and if yes what should we do for that Please please do answer this as I don’t know whom to ask otherwise